Week 6. John 11

Monday's Quatern
Oh I'm going to wake him up!
This Lazarus is sleeping sound.
His sisters called out - come to us,
but I'm just stay'n till morning comes.

They picked up stones to silence me
but oh I'm going to wake him up.
Walk by night, you're sure to fall,
so walk when y'see the light of day.

"If you had come all would be well.
You are the one we've waited for."
So I'm going to wake him up.
Watch for glory when you move the stone.

Oh watch for glory, won't you move that stone!
The dead man came a'walkin' out.
So watch when you see the light of day.
Oh I'm going to wake him up. 

Wednesday Nonets
If you had been here he would be well
strong friendships forged over the years
everyone gathered to watch
the women meet their friend
rational Martha
Mary falling
at his feet
weeping
still

everyone was thinking the same thing
if he had come when he was called
Lazarus would still be here
laughter instead of this
sorrow and wailing
now he is here
the tomb waits
death staggers
before
Christ

Haynaku
sickness
will not
end in death

martha
met him
as he came

mary 
fell down
at his feet

lazarus
stumbled out
of the grave

Thursday's Landays
trying to keep the lid on heresy
when it looks like calling Lazarus from four days gone

panic in all the upper chambers
as the structures slowly but surely begin crumbling

even the rocks and stones will cry out
testifying to life rather than holding death hostage

Friday's Sonnet
Shall I compare you to one of the chiefs?
Like Mistawasis who searched for bison
as numbers plummetted without relief
travelling far to search the horizon.

Metaphors fail if we push them too far.
We forget when they are so familiar
like shepherd, like bread, or like morning star.
Searching this prairie land... like a river.

You pulled one of us out from death's reaches
summoning Lazarus back from his sleep
like a river breaking in spring breaches
its banks, boundaries and channels. You weep

with us in chaos, and steadily breathe
our names in the silence, our lives redeem.

Saturday Haiku  
shadow and broken
glass as well as the crocus
collage on the banks

glimpse of a black hole
lit by event horizon
light disappearing

expanding reveals
ever more hospitable
creator of stars

voice of one calling
make way in the wilderness
pathway from the grave

resurrection life
we would live if you were here
called back into light

becoming a crocus hunter

I have learned that when the snow is almost gone on the banks of the South Saskatchewan River, and the air is still chilled by night frosts, this is the time to go crocus hunting.  Along the arches of grass beside the Meewasin trail, where prairie grass merges with juniper and low scrub along the edge of the escarpment, just before the land drops to the river valley.  We go walking off the trails, bending low, careful where we step, searching.

My favorite moment is the first sighting of the light purple peeking through the dry grass.  Once I've caught sight of one, they pop into view all along the brow of the hill.  Light purple stars, clumped with fuzzy nubs that are not yet open.  They hide in the brown junipers that are creeping toward the escarpment.  They stand exposed on some creature's footpaths among the dry grass.  They sprout beside a nighttime celebration's broken glass, and underfoot in the scrubby brush of the dog park.



I have never see them unless I am hunting for them. And had no idea how to look for them - or even that there was a point to looking for them -  before my friend took me on a walk last year, looking for crocuses.





If I want a really good picture, I have to kneel,
bend, or lay down on the grass, to get the camera close enough for a good shot, and if possible with some kind of backlight with sun rising or setting.  Because just a shot of the grass from where I stand shows just grassland.

The pelicans should arrive any time now.  We saw the first robins, watched the sea gulls on the patches of sand in the low river bed, caught a hawk playing on the breeze just under the light afternoon moon, watched crows gallivanting on the air currents.

We sat on the grass for a while, then turned back into the breeze along the trail to our home.
A successful crocus hunt.       

Week 5. John 10

written the week of April 1-6
Monday's Quatern
they thought he was keeping them in suspense
some game of blind man's bluff or hide and seek
tired of parables and Sabbath tricks
they asked him if he would speak a plainer truth

he spoke of thieves of robbers and shepherds
they thought he was keeping them in suspense
he kept piling image upon image
miracles were the plain language he spoke

he spoke of his gift of eternal life
gift to his sheep - gift through bread and water
they thought he was keeping them in suspense
but there were no words sufficient for this

so he knows his sheep and his sheep know him
he's a good shepherd and gate for his sheep
he lay down his life to take it again
they thought he was keeping them in suspense

Wednesday's Nonet
stumbeling through doorways and gateways
distantly hearing my name called
thirsty - so thirsty and dry
that voice sounds like water
like feasting, like rain
sun on my face
beckons me
forward
home

Haynaku
believe
going back
to the beginning

going
back to
where it started

Thursday's Landay
the religious leaders wrestling with Jesus' teachings and healings
is he enemy or messiah
spits on the dirt beneath our feet and blind eyes open

is he enemy or messiah
says he comes from the Father, does everything he's told

then is the father good or evil
challenging all we have built for the sake of the blind

a thief, hired hand or good shepherd
who is he? who is following him and who runs away?

Friday's Sonnet
You tell stories of thieves, robbers and sheep,
gatekeepers, hired men, good shepherds and life;
walk among us with compassion, and weep
with us in sorrow, yet stir up this strife.

Draw lines in the sand, irrevocably
shifting the paces we stand.  Now we see
frustration replacing complacency.
Who are you, where do you come from? And he

walks on the sand , singing creation's song
singing of treasure, of shepherds and seed
melodies echo until I am drawn
to watch him, to ask if he is indeed

the one we have waited for since time began
and earth began spinning at the touch of his hand.

Saturday's Haikus
We've been looking for crocus this week...just beginning to emerge.

hidden dusty mauve
dry grasses camouflaging 
emerging crocus

crocus make no splash
among the sage and grasses
burst with silent glee

bison in the hills
look for fresh sage and grasses
unearthing crocus

shepherd on the hills
safely may the sheep forage
he is trustworthy

Sheep photos by Randy while in NZ

Week 4. John 9

written during the week of March 25-30

Monday's Quatern
This man does not keep the Sabbath.
He finds a man who was born blind,
spits on the ground and creates mud.
...works with dirt just like his Father.

A prophet or a sinnerman,
this man who does not keep the Sabbath?
Spit and polish, mud and water.
Do you want to hear it again?

I washed and now my eyes can see.
Does the work of his Father, but
this man does not keep the Sabbath.
Do you want to follow him too?

Echoes of his creative power;
his fingers shape mud to find life.
This is good, so very good but
this man does not keep the Sabbath.

Tuesday's Nonet
he's never seen the light of morning
noonday sun falls hot on his back
ev'ning fades without notice
sounds and smells and flavors
color all his days
till this day mud
banishes 
darkness
SING!*

Wednesday's Haynaku

spit mud mask wash in Siloam

spit accuse him send him away

Thursday’s Landays

sharp longing wraps around my will pow’r

imprisons my better judgement and leaves agony

despair idles beneath the surface

coursing through a vacuum of boredom to wreck havock

sight unleashes the joy and the fear

we struggle to understand how it is possible

where is the man who gave you your sight?

while you were blind, we knew how to see; now are we blind?

suddenly things have become unclear

sight comes to one born blind, and so we must throw him out

Friday’s Sonnet

Shall I compare thee to new morning light

spilling o’er the horizon, shimmering;

awakening the birds, ready for flight,

casting long shadows, darkness bewild’ring.

We call it the breaking of a new day.

But it is night that is broken at dawn.

The slow spinning of earth’s orb will betray

night’s long hold – even in Saskatchewan.

Work, for the night most surely is coming.

While you are here, night is taken aback.

Wash mud in Siloam, heart beats drumming;

eyes have been opened, light shines through the crack.

Thin light of morning awakens my soul

awakens hope that all will be made whole.

Saturday Haiku

slowly receding

snow abandons ground and green

plants emerge ready

cloudy grey stillness

dead branches litter my yard

thrown down in winter

blue jay calls from high

screeching his warning or joy

morning calls forth songs

Week 3. John 8

Written during the week of March 18-23

Monday’s Quatern:

Come into the temple at dawn

find the illusive rogue teacher

Paparoa in the morning

who sits down and begins to speak

words richocheting thru the crowds

Pharisees and teachers of law

come into the temple at dawn

seeking the troubling rogue teacher,

woman in tow for his judgement.

Gathers crowds and writes in the sand,

infuriating leaders who

come into the temple at dawn

stones in hand, overwhelmed by fear.

I hold my breath watching him stand,

navigating their challenges.

Testifies, sent by his Father

come into the temple at dawn.

Tuesday’s Nonet

it began innocently enough

changed water to wine at Cana

fed five thousand on a hill

but he says I am bread

he says I am light

he says “I AM”

echoing

crumbling

stone

Wednesday’s Haynaku

I am light for the world	my time has not yet come
you never will walk in darkness	I am not of this world

Thursday’s Landay

discovered and dragged from deception

in dawn’s breaking light she was damned alone before them

bitterness rising within her breast

biting her lip till she tasted blood of the broken

his silence pushed her beyond the fear

accusations fading to a silent scratching in the sand

shuddering, blood pounding in her ears

waiting for judgement to rain down on her betrayal

still the silent scratching in the sand

whispering through the dust rather than gathering stones

Friday’s Sonnet

Shall I compare thee to a brilliant light,

A light so full that it casts no shadow

Nor shall I find darkness, though it be night.

(And still, what shall I do with my sorrow?)

“Where do you come from? Where are you going?

These are the questions no one is asking.

These are the things they think they are knowing.

If not Galilee, what needs unmasking?

His light casts their certainty into shade.

So, swiftly they turn to frame light as dark.

“Not from Father, but from demons you wade.”

Cornering, fighting his words till they spark

within them a rage and they reach for stone.

He slips into shadows ‘ere one is thrown.

Saturday haiku

temperature rising

water is not yet running

spring is breaking thru

temperature rising

gathered people now turning

kingdom breaking through

Week 2. John 7

Little Levi and big sister Elena break into the writing like spring ...

written during the week of March 11-16.

Monday Nonets

Brothers knew him well but did not know

this one thing, from the beginning

He was one of them, yet not.

So familiar was he

that they scorned his claim

to be water

for all time

Spirit

sent

Levi curls forward tight to return

to his accustomed position

undisturbed by hungry cold.

Eyes tightly shut he wills

himself back to sleep

Elena kiss

Mama kiss

startle

sleep

Tuesday Quatern

“This isn’t my time. Don’t push me.”

The wedding wine was running out

His mother knew some hidden pow’r

And called him out before his time

Now sarcastic brothers taunt him

“This isn’t my time. Don’t push me.”

Like them, but strangely unlike;

Didn’t give them what they wanted.

He has stirred up things around him

Something has shifted in this town

“This isn’t my time. Don’t push me.”

Anger growing, wonder spreading.

Accept healing-not the healer.

Accept the food – but at what cost?

Slipping in and out of trouble

This isn’t my time. Don’t push me.

Wednesday Haynaku

time

is of

the utmost importance

Thursday Landays

Wind blasts snow across icy dirt roads

Little Elena stands on the ice looking for deer

Morning snowflakes drift past the windows

Levi opens new eyes to Sapton’s bright winter’s light

Pines and aspen, birch and ivy vines

Still wave, still stand as buffer to the winter’s sharp sting

… and back to John 7

Jewish religious festivals merge

Into sound and color and all saturated senses

But not this feast of tabernacles

Jesus of nowhere walking free as though nothing mattered

Friday’s Sonnet

You fall asleep and leave me unattached.

So silently I slip on coat and boots

and walk into the forest paths unmatched

by summer’s warm beckoning leaves and fruits.

Papery bark peels and curls from birches

Red willow dances with spruce and aspen.

Chickadee, red pole and nut hatch perches

on winter’s silent sleep, stillness grasping.

Yet cold is cracking, winter losing hold,

rivers slowly rising in the sunshine.

The turning moment may not be so bold

as those who, well fed, still asked for a sign.

Nicodemus stands by.  Now Galilee

links him by day to his sanctuary.

Saturday Haiku

five thin birches grow

around one decaying stump

round dance from their roots

comfort shaken by bread

March 8 Sonnet

Shall I compare thee to my daily bread?

How can that be, for you are friend, father.

Stone oven bakeries by flames are fed,

my kitchen’s loaves of wheat and oats offer

no small promise of sustenance rising.

Bread in our home, or to the ground falling-

while Israel wander’d, recognizing

not you in the feeding, in the watching.

And standing there like teacher, brother, friend;

you also walk on water, multiply

the smallest gift and laws of nature bend.

Comfort shaken by bread, we stumble by.

Safe little baby, all swaddled and warm…

this Christ of the mountain takes me by storm.