still

there is a strange vibrating stillness that courses through mind and body
as my children fly far afield

I am so completely not in control
unfamiliar with both the amazing and the mundane of their days

where are they sleeping  what are they eating  whom do they meet what roads do they walk on what kind of sun shines on them who are the people they spend their days with what are they thinking about how are they being shaped Lord watch over them and guard them and shape them and let them see what they need to see and become strong and courageous

and this of course is completely necessary and important.  and wonderful